Sunday, November 11, 2012

The New Grappling Journey: Fresh Start

It always great to have a fresh new start in creating a new path for yourself.. With my baggage and vices left on the mat at Grappling X I now found myself on a new beginning with my entry into the International Grappling Championships (aka Technique Challenge) and BOyyyy was it something from a mental, physical, and even unusual standpoint.

Coming along with 2 other teammates this swing, we all found ourselves facing the first challenge THE LONG ASS WAIT.  I have been to tournaments that have ran behind but man this was ridiculous 4 hours late. Going through something like that makes you want to say  4get this shit I’m leaving  or just go out there to “get it over with”. As the clock struck 4pm with the kids division still going one of my teammates was thinking about leaving ( won’t say his name) but after one of my motivational angry rants basically telling him…
If you going run off at least get on the mat and half ass it to a least say u went out there to “compete” but don’t run away !
I think squared him away good (funny outcome he had). Looking at it from my standpoint I just saw it as a delay of the inevitable great battle that will go down that day on the mat. It made my blood rush with elevated heat, it made my mind more focused, my heart pump out of my chest to see what will happen when I stepped on to the mat !! After all I knew what I was there for and nothing was going block me from c’n that.
After waiting countless hours and greeting some BJJ friends through the process it was finally go time  Waiting in the bullpen I was surrounded by my 3 other competitors. One from the Mendes Brother gym, Another from Leo DAlla), and….holy shit!!! Manuel Figueroa (the same guy I fought in the finals at the last tournament). Another interesting day was about to unfold !!!
With other 2 teammates already fighting there battles (and doing well I may add) the pressure seemed follow the pattern.So the first match saw the Mendes Brothers student vs. the Leo Dalla fighter. The match was very intense but sadly ended with a controversial leg lock submission (knee reaping I dunno) giving the Mendes brother blue belt the win. Boy was the other guy pissed so much so he went to 3 referee’s with the video to demand a reverse decision (which didn’t go in his favor).He stormed off in anger and disappeared. As I watched that I told myself I never want to become that way again. I know what I’m getting myself into and I got to accept whatever comes with the individual bringing his version of pain to me.
So I guess it was my turn next. As I stood on the side of the mat heavily focused I was surprisingly interrupted by the shocked that the scorekeeper said my name correctly (people rarely get my name right on the first try something is up) as I turned around he stood up to great me and shook my hand. In my mind I was like who is this guy ? Then when he said his name it was hella crazy but a true honor to meet IAN LAWLER (the very first guy I did a military spotlight article on). Sux he was done for the day would have been awesome if he could have stayed to see my matches.
So the first round found myself going up against a familiar opponent in Manuel. When I saw him at the first tournament I didnt get too much interaction with him got a chance to actually talk to him b4 and after the fight this time around. As I kept telling myself that oh familiar lingo “ I Will give it everything I have 2day to be a better man than I Once was” and praying in my mind for strength, protection (for me & my opponent), and personal growth ; at the corner of my eye I saw something that had my heart almost sink to my ass. Manuel Figueroa got on his knees and started praying to God almost for the exact thing (strength in battle). The sight really made me kind of sad that we couldn’t fight in the finals. 2 individuals out there not 4 prizes but to become better. However in this slight time of being soft-hearted I quickly thought positive and realized this is going be a great match.
In short the match started off aggressive. I did not abandon my strategy and I Pulled guard working endlessly for submissions attacks. 6 minutes passed matched ended 0-to-0 ANOTHER OVERTIME …Déjà vu… I laughed out loud. This time around we weren’t tired. Knowing the rules I did the exact same thing eventually with me winning the fight as the most aggressive fighter. (Manuel eventually took third due to the other grappler leaving)

As I made my way into my 2nd match against the fighter from the Mendes bros academy I knew this was gonna be a fight. The guy was the definition of a individual with no conscience ready to murder anything in his way ( saw his demeanor through the whole process). With me not having a coach for a short period of time and at his corner was the oh so great ( I say that sacarticly btw) Rafael Mendes in his corner it seemed the deck was stacked against me. The fight did not start off great in my favor as for the first time ever in a grappling competition (including JUDO) I was thrown…man not good. During the heated exchange I suddenly got accidental clocked with a knee to the mouth. Dang this again me tasting my own blood L instead of fearing it I wiped it on my face and continued to battle on ( n by the look in rafa’s face he probably was saying to himself “this dude is nuts”).
Colton Smith said it best- We are going go out there, we are going fight and bleed, and I do what I can to come out on top. A phrase I took going into this.
As I continued to struggle in the battle I begin to hear the coaching of my teammates helping through it all it made me work harder. Although I was losing I knew I had to finish this fight strong, I had to see the fight through to the very end. End results me losing in the finals (got 2nd place). Shook my opponents hand and congratulated him on the win.
Overall it was another great battle which helped me to become a better man. A lot of lesson where acquired and this chapter showed me the true test of my heart which prevailed.
One a side note the teammate who almost had left because the tournament running late…end up winning his division. Super happy 4 him and my other teammate (although he didn’t medal) did a sick job and almost went to the semifinals n a great match.
It always funny how people advice quotes tell the story of my experience, So I will end this blog with a Kyle Stewart line.
“it is not the finish line that matters but the overall journey to look back on “

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

The Battle Ahead: Pushing Forward-"It's Always Personal"


Well it seems like the no-gi worlds has come to an end. While everyone is reflecting on their current triumphs or mistakes as for me I am getting ready to step back into the fire once again. A little over a month has passed by since my last personal victory in September now I am prepared for another “Battle Within” this coming Saturday at my next grappling tournament.

Since the Grappling X event a lot of things have changed. Aside from me training harder, feeling like a stronger person and completing my last article for the year one of the biggest shocker was the responses I got from the "2 part blog I wrote on my return to competition". It was surprising that so many people supported/ was inspired by my story {especially with me being just a normal guy} and how some even go through similar trials in their competition endeavors. The kind words definitely touched my heart which made me more motivated to compete more to REPRESENT for those people who go through their own personal battle in competition/life .

A lot of times a “Battle Within” can merely be to prove something to yourself whether it be becoming the best or facing a fear. Sometimes people get caught up in a fantasy land { things/goals that look great} such as medals, sponsorships, and lust for attention -etc.- which are all materialistic/narcissistic values that don't mean jack shit in the long run as you get higher in the ranks or in life.

Now on the other side of the coin you got a person who goes out there for personal reasons (like myself). Although getting a medal is great all of that gets override by the purpose embedded in their heart each time they goes onto the battlefield which as a result makes one stronger{win or lose}.

Carrying a personal purpose while going out there and giving it everything you have {making yourself vulnerable in a way} IMO is the true victory . You never know this personal journey may even bless you to becoming a world champ one day.

Going into my last tourney {coming off a 3 year absence} I obviously had a lot of baggage on me which got uplifted. This time around it’s all about building myself into the man I want to be...and no matter how many times I fall or medal  I won't stop until my goal is accomplished. So how do I keep myself focused on this you ask...when the ultimate mission is to get gold {from a competitive standpoint}...simple I reflect back to 05 and 09 incidents say this to myself.

"I've been down for over 3 years I refuse to coward in my own grief and be broken like that ever again by any man. I will always strive and not let any hurdle get in my way from bettering myself"

It kind of crazy I know. However to anyone who knows my story you would know why I feel this way.  It fuels my desire to prove to myself Im strong, it helps me to overcome another obstacle, and most importantly it allows me to get it everything I have (whether I win or lose) which allows me to see the battle through to the very end.  Overall it’s merely a way to keep me on soild ground while going into a fight because trust me it is and will ALWAYS be a nervous/hard ordeal getting ready for an unknown confrontation against someone you have no clue what/why they want to do something  to you.

In all I'm looking forward to the event. Overall it about building from the victories, to maybe losing, and facing new scenarios that will test me mentally and physically.

I guess for me in the end As long as my 5 prayers from what i mention in Part 2 gets answered I am fine with whatever happens.


Let see where it will take me this time around.


Finally wanted to say Thanks again for every1's support and most importantly to all the fighter's/friends that motivated me every day in my goal of becoming a better man. I couldn’t have taken this road again without your help (You know who you are !!!!).

Keep you ALL updated on the results....

Monta